I have created this blog to write down my thoughts and feelings about me, myself and I.

First thing I want to mention is how I am looking for a purpose within my life as a front end developer and as a person.

How can I help with everyone's needs and not disappoint them or myself? 

I want to find who I am actually am. 

Why I exist. 

What is my purpose in life because that's what everyone is looking for right? A purpose? 

My need at the moment is to not be a disappointment to anyone in my life. And be that person they can rely on and help them or even guide them to success. 

I want to create meaningful work that can be contributed to the wider community for everyone's benefit. I believe that all knowledge should be free and shared so we can grow as a community to make this world a better place to live in, and maybe if I can contribute something, this will give me this thing called "purpose". It is a start of something small but hoping in time my goals and aspirations to help others and contribute to the community will be an impact, or at least inspire others. 

Right now, I feel like in my professional career as a developer has hit a brick wall. There is always something new to learn in the development world. New frameworks and technologies are being developed and distributed every week. Even I am creating new components in our framework every month to be shared with the company and the wider community. Enlightening everyone with the possibilities we can achieve with our framework, how we can better it, make it more efficient and up to date with the rest of the competitive frameworks on the market. 

Even though I am creating all these new components and wanting to enlighten people with these ideas I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure. I'm setting myself up to disappoint people. Why I feel that way? I have no idea at this stage.   

I'm thinking I have a passion for teaching others what I know myself. I want people to know what I do and how I do it. I've never considered teaching other's until now. Maybe it's time to start a free coding lesson or maybe it's time to support others in ways they want to be supported.

So much is running through my head at this stage.